Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Twyla at Twilight

The heat hangs in the air like vines reaching for sunlight
But this breed of rare and expensive hydroponic honey suckle
Is seeking sturdy moonbeams, carved through space
Until they thud, at my front door

Every particle of light a heavy burden to the oxygen around it
But I suck it in so sweet, like heavy silk down my throat and nostrils
I tangle my arms in it and it dances like Twyla Tharp before me
The smell of starry sediment lingers, though the moon does not

My dad got tickets for us to see a Twyla Tharp performance at the Mondavi Center in Davis in October. StOkEd.


Kehlani - "You Should Be Here"

I haven't been this obsessed with an artist since I was a baaaby. This whole mixtape has been on repeat everywhere I go for the past couple months. It has ascended girl crush ...

Monday, August 24, 2015

Xtina's B-day | Angel Island

Happy Birthday Christina! 

I had an amazing time in the bay, celebrating an old friend with lots of new friends.

We took a ferry from San Francisco to Angel Island for a day of Bocce Ball and BBQ!

I'm sleepy and don't feel like typing, so I'll let the photos speak for themselves. 


Solo Djourneyriving com Gêmeas

I've always loved to drive,
Back then it was an eight seater Buick Station Wagon
Drove like bus,
Gliding like a whale in water ...
No wonder I loved that thing

First solo drive at sixteen
Purposefully took a wrong turn
On my way to Rachel's
No one to tell me I'm taking the long way
Wasting gas does not exist in this world

I've never wasted a drop,
It's always taken me exactly where I was meant to go,
Avoiding potholes on Oakland back-streats
At fifty miles an hour
Unfazed city driver - Papa would be proud

This time it took me on orchard roads,
Where the steady pace of trees,
All order and grid gaps,
Makes me feel disorderly - from my loose
Hand on the wheel to my loose grip on reality

I don't think I've ever been more happy and more confused
I sprawl in a comfort I've never known across my QUEEN
Of a bed
I wake in the night with an ease in my heart
That can only mean I'm doing something right

But the confusion, the question marks ???
Where do they come from?
I search my Achilles heel for a soft spot
A patch of mismatched skin
Until I'm bruised from the poking and prodding

Leave me be, mystery,
My gemini has me on both sides - the want
The need to solve,
That is me,
But then, there's the me that surrenders

She's new, or just my awareness of her is
She's utterly unwilling to budge from her fate
She's beautiful in her boldness
And she gives 0 fucks that you have a
Mystery to solve

She's just fine,
She's better than ever,
She's ready to sleep and wake up with a body high
That she'll use to show you
You're doing something right.


The poems just keep spilling and I think I'll keep sharing them as they come <3

Sunday, August 23, 2015

Happy News | New Place!

Soooo, I mentioned a while back that I was looking for a place ... and that place has been found!

I have been living at home with my mom for the past year, saving money for some big purchases like my big beautiful camera and my new car, but it has definitely been feeling like it's time to fly the coop.

I found a house two blocks from the park with a couple my age. He is a firefighter and she is a grad student in social work. The place has a nice backyard, a doggy, and I even get my own bathroom! However, the best part of all is that it is a couple blocks away from my best friend Jahlelah's new place! I'll be moving in the first of the month because my brother Raoul is leaving for Los Angeles this week, and I want to be home to hang out with him as much as possible beforehand.

I have never not lived at home in Chico so in some ways it will be a whole new experience. I am beyond excited to have space that is REALLY mine and to get to know my new roomies and bug Jahlelah alll the time :)

Room photos will be posted as soon as it's all in place!

Sunday, August 16, 2015

Traveling Partners

Check-in and then quickly check-out,
Don't think too long about how you feel,
Feel comfort in lies you tell yourself

Lie still only when you sleep,
Sleep without dreaming,
Dream of happier times without reaching for them

Reach only for the remote.

No, reach.

Accept that you are learning,
And learning is uncomfortable,
Like shedding skin,
Detaching in pieces that you must sit with,
Until the whole layer is ready to be slithered off

Dunk yourself in river water and let the surface above you
Twinkle and sway like the universe itself,
Fall suddenly from your thoughts of nervousness
Of what the future will hold
Into a calm and enveloping excitement for the adventures ahead

For you and the universe are the oldest traveling partners
And she has never steered you wrong

Yuba River with Emily

I hope you're all having as relaxing of a Sunday as I have been. I went out dancing with friends last night and apparently really tired myself out. I woke up at 11:20 this morning and have been lounging ever since.

Yesterday, Emily and I drove down to Grass Valley to go to the Yuba River and brought along Lars, a dog she is sitting for the weekend.  I've never met a dog who liked to swim as much as him. All he wanted to do was swim alongside us and fetch sticks (or logs).

The Yuba is the most beautiful river I know, with smooth white rocks that have been carved by the always blue-green water. Emily and I had a really nice time at the river and during the drive. She's the best. 



Monday, August 10, 2015

A Weekend Recap

Hello beauties.

I had a busier weekend than usual which was actually really nice. I had lots of plans and managed to squeeze all of them in but one (Salsa night was the one casualty).

Friday night I went to see a coworker's band, The She Things, play at The Maltese. It was actually my first time there which is sort of crazy - Chico isn't big and you'd think I would have seen it all by now. After dancing my booty on to two sweet surf rock bands I met up with Jahlelah at The Bear where we ate chicken wings, met a very forward Brazilian guy (which prompted Jahlelah to tell him that he was reinforcing all Brazilian stereotypes, which prompted me to laugh really hard, which prompted him to be kind of confused and eventually leave us alone). Then we danced for five minutes before they told us they were shutting the dance floor down. It was so good to see her after her epic three week long road trip. Hallelujah she's home!

One of my oldest friends, Acacia, invited me to her company block party that started at 4pm on Saturday. A well-known local band called Mystic Roots played, which was kind of a funny pick because they're a reggae band that sings a lot about smoking weed and it wasn't the kind of crowd that eats that stuff up. To remedy that, there was free alcohol, food, games etc. Plus, two of Acacia's friends from Maryland who are doing a mean cross-country road trip  came along so it was nice to meet them.

Sunday was Jahlelah's son, Cooper's birthday. It was an epic Star Wars themed party with a bounce house/water slide combo that us girls definitely commandeered a few times. I was silly to not have brought a swimsuit and wore lacy underwear, but luckily they matched my bra so I didn't get reprimanded by any little boys haha.

After going to the gym I took Zeus for a sunset stroll ...  a really lovely end to a bustling few days. Life is good and things are moving.

My mom and brother get back from their respective trips in the next day or so which is going to make for a busy house. I am going to look at a room for rent on Wednesday though, so my escape may be near. Cross your fingers and toes for me.